Corded Jubilation

Corded Jubilation

Ouru Tinga is sufficient but inadequate

Tinga Ouru is perfect but reputation self-seeker

I am a poet but don’t know how to write

I stammer and tremble in the public arena

I am arguably the most self-conscious Kenyan ash-hole

I am a green fellow, fresh like Sukuma wiki

Strongly pounded and soundly refined like Luhya Sima

If I go with the feeling of inadequacy

If I remain mum to the truth

I walk away from my shadow

Then I miss opportunity of a life time

I am afraid I don’t know what is coming next

I fear failure and family rejection

If you think I am just a blogger, for the pleasure of mouthing off

You need political salvation

Tinga Ouru is insufficient

Ouru Tinga is imperfect

There is always an excuse

No excuse of bondage

Of two psychopaths gone mad

Their prescription is an overdose

A Recycled illegal suicidal path

If you think you are better looking than me

I walk by faith while you walk by sight

I give you a daily dose of consciousness

To sustain you in political wilderness

Two rivers run through me, Hell and Heaven are real

These two men are sights and sounds of both

They eat the food they really like

While they feed us with hay

Therapeutically fighting their bridal feud

Irresistibly fighting for the Makombos

For we are broken and Kombo

The third force must rise up

Plenty be found within our borders

An unknown number

Never growing weary

We cannot stay starring to the beauty of heaven

While the Nation is in a terrible unexplainable trial

The enemy within and without

Farting at will

Its no accident, Its negligence

Where is God especially for broken hearted?

Sons and Daughters of awe!

Everything is incomplete now

We know the answers but ask the wrong questions

Future generation can only imagine

What species existed here and there?

Sadly the dogs are still barking

And falls prophets collecting the tithe

From the wretched of the earth

How is that possible you ask?

Another awkwardly wrong question

I will tell you now

It’s possible

To be  unJubilatedly unCorded

By: ~Njoroge wa Ngige~ 012416-1354

Fear: The Fake Demon of New Year

Fear: The Fake Demon of New Year

So tell me how does it feel to go back to work? You closed last year with a high note and everlasting smile that seemed light years away.  You posted all your famous photos for Christmas and happy New Year party reapers sessions. Do not start frowning at me. I also blasted my selfies in the social media and if you failed to click a like button or a quick comment I felt endangered and fearfully made.  Why should we worry and we publicly broadcasted our wishes for end year. We vomited all our cares and concern to unknown bar tender as we religiously ordered another round of amusement parked teargas of depression.

Now its 8 days after the hype of New Year and the thunder diarrhea of worries has not stopped but earnestly started.  How conveniently you hear things but you can’t see?  You do not have to visit the monkey doctor for herbal prescriptions and diagnosis. He is also hearing voices like you, has not paid student loans and has not finished his yoga classes. You are both walking with blurred vision and slumped shoulders. Both you are wondering how you will make it. Dreading the thought of another year stuck in this same job. Ugh. Any of this sounds familiar? Well, welcome to the rat race. And be glad at least you have a rat race. It’s just that, a race.  

But don’t worry so much because you still have your new bold end year resolution. Everything looks perfect on paper but what is holding you is the fear. How do you implement your resolution without drastic measures of changing the patterns in your daily life? The fear of the unknown clouds your thoughts. The fear of failure stalks you like a shadow. On your wish list you wished for money to rain in your life like snowflakes. Now you are stuck in the mud of snow dead broke and with bills to pay. Sorry to bother you. But I kept my promise that we shall meet again on this forum God willing. Talk about tough love. I won’t spare you none, I positively guarantee that. I will not leave you until you have no reason to be scared of demolishing the fake demons of New Year.  

Forget what they told you. Remember what they didn’t tell you.  If my theory is correct action is the enemy of fear. To face the ghosts of New Year you will need to do normal small actions over and over again. Perhaps you need to start saving some money, call a friend- place that call, read about starting a small business, research about relocating to a new city, Re-writing your resume, proposing to her, signing up for a life changing program, Going to church this Sunday and forgiving your Ex with all the drama, connecting with a loved one and repairing that broken relationship.  It’s just about everything and anything in between. Call me a mantra I am just a blogger and I have my fears too.

Life is all about relationships, everything else is just but a bonus. There is nothing wrong with you. The only problem you have not broken last year’s patterns and now you expect a miraculous visitation. You will need to confess that it surprises you how you have made it through all these years with the same killer habits. You will need to admit that you are scared and it just New Year. The worst thing living in fear is that if you do nothing about it, it just keeps on multiplying. You will need to discard your recycled New Year resolutions that take you to nowhere. You must join the offensive side if all you have known is being defensive and vice versa. Its time to draw a decisional balance worksheet. To do this you will need to answer the following questions as faithfully as possible both short term and long term.  What are good things about the behavior/pattern? What are not so good things about the behavior/pattern? What are good things about changing the behavior/pattern? And finally what are not so good things about changing the behavior/pattern? You may want to post your feedback here, you are welcome. Let’s face falls evidence appearing real {FEAR} and happy safe, healthy New Year 2016.

~By Njoroge wa Ngige~ 01082016-0925